Use Me

God is burdening my heart for people in need. Not just Orphans, people. The starving, the sick, the homeless, the poor, the lonely, the lost and the people who just need a hug...or a friend. As I listened to this song on the radio yesterday (the video I have posted), it brought me back to my first time in a "City". My mom took me to see the Backstreet Boy's in Atlanta when I was in 6th grade. As we were leaving the GA dome, in the parking garage we had to step over sleeping homeless people. Not to mention pass by them all standing on the sides of the road asking for money. My mom wouldn't let me give them money either. Well, something struck me as I stepped over this last homeless guy before we got into our car. I remember he was laying on the cold concrete and he smelt of alcohol and vomit. That night, I cried myself to sleep over that man.
I'm not sure why God brought that up. Maybe because I hadn't thought about the needy again until the other night, when I cried myself to sleep over those children in Africa who were laying in the dirt literally starving to death, they couldn't move because they had no energy. They could NOT move! Little children...naked, starving, unable to move...laying in dirt, dying. To think that is happening all over makes me sick to my stomach.
It is hard not to sell everything we have, pack my family up and go help those people. somehow.
A year ago, I saw a man on the side of the road holding a sign for food. All I had was a burrito from taco bell, a few hours old, that I didn't eat. I remember giving it to him, and he ate it right there in front of me.
My prayer is that God will tell me what he want's me to do. We are all called to do something. Maybe God does not want me to adopt, maybe he want's me to go volunteer at the homeless shelter? Maybe he want's me to donate money? Maybe he want's me to gather things for care packages for those who need it? Maybe he wants me to simply pray? Whatever it is that he wants me to do, I will do it for him. No matter how big or small I think it is.
"Take Everything I am...I'm Clay within your hands."


On another note...
My sister want's me to take her kittens. Let me begin by saying...I hatecats. (sorry to all the crazy cat ladies out there...) I don't like pet's in general (unless its a cute puppy under 5lbs who is 100% house trained and doesn't bark to much or have accidents or shed hair. lol) I know, that narrows it down a ton, haha. Well, anyways, since she had to move back home out of Matt's house, she can't bring their cats. My parent's have a hunting dog who will eat yes....EAT the cats if they get near him. It's a risk, nobody want's to take! She does not want to give them to the pound because they were her's and matt's, she does not want to let them go.
They are neutered and all that, litter box trained (ick) OH , and there is TWO of them. OH joy!
I feel like, if I don't take them...it will make her worse if she has to give them to the pound. It will add to the stress and hurt.
I feel like this is something I have to do, if that makes sense. Even though, it is the last thing on earth that I want to do.
She said she'll take them when she moves out of my parents house. Okay, not to put my sister down or doubt her by any means...but where is she going to go anytime soon? Seriously. She is going to be there a year at the minimum! We are not talking about cat sitting for a month or something. This is a long term commitment.
Maybe I can tell her that Addison will pull their tales and hit them, and then she wont want them to come here??????
UGH!
I have a hard time saying no, because I do not like to disappoint people. Especially since my sister and I have just began talking again...and she is still going through all of this. Oh what to do...what to do....

On top of all this, my girl's are being insane today. Riley comes to get me " Mom, come look at my puke!" ugh....! Addison is getting into everything. And they are both fighting over every toy in the house. Tomorrow cannot come fast enough. Plus, it is SO gloomy out...all clouds, no sun. Makes me depressed =-(. I just want to curl up in bed, fall asleep and wake up to a sunny tomorrow. Tonight we are carving pumpkins with the girls! We loved it last year. I miss having a fireplace. We used are old one at least 4 times a week...however, it's not even cold enough yet for a fire. I'm just imagining. =-)
Here are some pictures from yesterday, the trick or treat on bay street. I threw the girl's ballerina costumes on them, and it was a wrap!








What we are praying for:
Guidance.
That God shows me what HE want's me to do.
Knowledge.
Patience.
For the people in need. All of them. Infants to elderly. American to Japanese, Starving to just needing a hug.
For everyone helping work our church's Oktoberfest tomorrow.
For a friend of mine, and everything she is going through.




'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.'